OCTOBER

finally,

today is end of october

many changes happened
things went different
weird
strange
unusual
i felt lonely
alone
empty

needed an adaptation
and customization
made any excuses
unconfident
weak
careless

silly
stupid
naive

but..
i was learning.
life is learning, and i'll never stop.

that was october means for me..

unforgotten moment in my life,

Short Update : Black is Better

Tau situs Blackle???
search engine kayak Google gitu, tapi versi saving energy-nya..
alo kita pake Blackle, kita bisa liat di start pagenya berapa watt energi yang kita simpan, dan itu sangat membantu bumi lho!

nah udah lama gw tau tentang situs blackle ini, trus kemaren pas lagi blogwalking, ga sengaja baca sebuah blog yang nyebutin kalo website hitam itu lebih hemat energi! Warna hitam di layar komputer membutuhkan 59 Watt, sedangkan warna putih ato terang membutuhkan 74 Watt!

akhirnya gw ganti deh template halaman blogspot gw..yah, mudah2an aja ga ada yang komplain. gw uda berusaha agar tulisannya tetep kebaca kok..

lastly, mungkin dengan hal - hal kecil seperti inilah kita bisa membantu bumi.


PS.
oya..
away from my topic today..
i've been missing some people today. cant say how much i miss them. teguh, my partner, he was missing cz business, really miss time we've spent together. i learned a lot from him, and i dunno, when will i ask him to explain some new and amazing thing which makes me feel stupid (damn, he's so smart! i really envy him). vega, i heard you're sick, and you know i had spent many times, reminding you to have some breakfast. but you always skip it! sri, i really enjoyed our Smallville-time..remember,huh? cant wait to hear your noisy voice!
last semester in my college, i didnt have many times for hanging out with them, i seldom meet them, sorry i cant mentioned all of u, just be sure, ure more than writings in this blog. i love u more than that..

Love is Uneasy

Again, me, being trapped in very heavy traffic jam---on my way home---, makes me feel 'oh-so boring', so i decide to update my blog.
This morning, i received bad news from my bff. Really bad,cz she told me that she broke up with her boy. Dunno what happened, guess their relationship did well --- i know,cz i am their Miss Matchmaker --- although they had 'long distance relationship' and had had some quarrels, but i never took it seriously. I knew that they loved each other.
Hm, i tried to find out what's going on, but i didn't get clear explaination. My bff replied my message with only one or two words, i could feel she was desperately in sadness, and soon i felt it too. I almost decide to visit her in bandung instead of coming home. (I canceled it,cz i really needed going home).
She told me why her BF broke her up, but i thought it was unreasonable.

Why do some people think that 'love is uneasy'?
Why do they make everything become hard to lived,become impossible?

What am i thinking?
Love is easy,people. Love is quite simple and sweet. Never make it harder, never think how complicated it is, and you'll feel love is easy. If you love,just love,other feelings will come by itselves. Just love,and you'll find a commitment.
Just love,and you'll be more confident.
Just love,and you'll sacrifice.
Just love.
I could find perfect words to narate what i felt this morning. I found AGAIN someone who thought that love is uneasy.

PS.do i look so naive?mybe some people will think like that.

Arti nama..

Believe it or not..ini arti nama aku..

YULIA DELA DACREA
Mengandung Arti:
- Jalan penghidupan yang tentram, merdeka, bahagia dan sempurna
- Kecintaan dan kebahagiaan
- Kekuatan
- Pengampunan dan kemerdekaan
- Keteguhan, kebijaksanaan, pengaruh dan kekuasaan
- Kesempurnaan dan kebaikan
- Kemasyhuran dan pernikahan
- Kesesatan dan kedukaan


WHAAAAAT???

Apa maksudnya kesesatan dan kedukaan??

Buat tau arti nama kamu, klik disini ya..

Quarrel in the Morning (sebuah episode..)

fiuh..after waiting so long, finally.. i can use my mate's comp---fyi, my comp has no internet connection,sucks!---, and updating my blog. i'd like to tell you today.
it was ordinary morning, quite boring, until it happened.
(fyi, i'll use my mom's language, Indonesian ---thing that I avoid, cuz i really mean to write in english, so i can improve my english, although with lousy grammar,huhu--- cuz i think it won't be funny at all in english.)

jadi, seperti biasanya ni, hari gw dimulai di kalibata. buat nyampe ke kantor gw yang ada di pasar rebo, gw harus nae metromini (bisa no 640,64, ato 62)sampe pasar minggu, trus nyambung angkot merah S15. yup.. kali aja ada yang mau mampir,he. nah, cerita gw dimulai dari angkot S15---umm, juz little confuse, anybody know angkot in english??---. pas gw nae, angkotnya masi sepi, cuma ada satu mbak-mbak (ato ibu2 ya?) duduk di deket pintu keluar. nah, si ibu bawa belanjaan banyak banget dua keresek item gitu, dan barangnya ditaro di deket pintu masuk, jadi rada susah masuknya, but it's not a big problem for me. nah masalahnya, pas ada seorang nenek tua mau masuk. dia bawa barang lumayan banyak, keranjang yang digendong di punggungnya, trus dua keranjang belanjaan gede gitu. kira2 kayak gini lha tampangnya,,



yaah..kurang lebih lha..walo ga mirip2 amat. si nenek itu mau masuk, tapi susah, cz kehalang sama belanjaan ibu2 itu.trus si nenek ngedorong belanjaan ibu itu rada ke samping, maksudnya ya biar dia gampang masuk. eh..si ibu malah sewot.
beginilah kira2 percakapan diantara mereka.

ibu2 (i) : eeh..kenapa ni dipinggirin, saya mau turun di depan..deket kok!!
nenek2 (n) :yeeeh..bukan gitu..rada ke pinggir dikit napa?
(lalu hening sesaat)

n :yah..sekarang itu pada ga sopan ya sama orang tua, sama nenek2, nenek mau masuk, malah diomelin, mentang - mentang cantik, tempat di angkot diambil semua..

(dan gw pun berpikir, kayaknya ibu2nya ga cantik deh..heheu)

i : (dengan sewot) eh,nek!bukannya gitu! ga ada hubungannya sama cantik! (yee..dia GR,heheu), saya kan udah minggir dikit, tapi nenek tetep dorong2 beelanjaan saya!

n : (dengan tidak peduli) yaah..kayak dia mau bayar 5000 aja, padahal kan bayar sama, tapi angkot dikuasai..

i : (marah) nek! udah lah, sekarang kan saya udah nyingkir, ya udahlah diem! ga usah celoteh2 lagi!

n : (makin ga peduli) yah..orang kayak gini mah, susah dapet jodoh, paling bentar ya 3 taon lagi..ato 5 taon lagi..kasian calon suaminya, dibawelin trus tiap hari..

i : %*^*$%&$#GHG!! (maaf, ga bisa ditampilin, coz si ibu ngomong kasar banget!) udah,kiri!!Kiri,bang!

si ibu pun turun, dan akhirnya kedamaian pun tercipta kembali di angkot itu.
begini kira2 wajah si ibu itu..



maap, ga bisa nemuin gambar yang pas, tapi kira2 seperti itulah muka si ibu, tapi lebih muda kira2 5 tahun..

dan seperti inilah kira2 angkot yang gw naekin..tempat tragedi itu..




ga penting.

white...white..everyday in white..don't you feel a bit bored?

i adores white so much..i had lotsa white tees, although mum always didn't like it, cuz it would get dirty faster than ever.. (haha..sorry mum, but I washed my self, it didn't matter to me.. i just loved white, it was simple, cute, and honest color..

look, how gorgeous they are, wearing white..huhuhu..of course, i didn't looked like them.. =)



after all, after wearing white every day, five times a week ( oh yeah, actually 4th, but last week I hadn't know we used batik every Friday, so i still used my white shirt ), it become annoying..
So irritating! Everyday, using white shirt and black pantalon,it's peevish! I dunno why we can't wear another color, don't they bored if they must use same color on and on??
yeah..yeah...here,in my office, at PP (i think i haven't told you already), every employees must use uniform. Blue in monday and tuesday, grey in wednesday and thursday, batik in friday.
but, for OJT (on Job Training), like i do now, who haven't got the uniform, we must use black and white every time!! Every time! eeeRGH.. YOU WON'T BELIEVE, i felt a bit malice with tika, my roommate. last friday, when we went out to plasa semanggi, big discounts held in centro, and she bought everything she could see, and i just watched her with jealousy. the matter is didn't mean I couldn't afford it, but i just didn't know where would i used it, cuz i couldn't wear anything except white in my office!
she got 2 shirts.. i really loved purple one, 50 % from the excecutive!!! uuugh..sigh!
seems i must replaced my investment for bags and shoes.. let's see later,hehe..

i desperately looked for some cute batik there too, i knew i just could show up in friday (huks, but really didn't matter, sometimes we couldn't get things that we want to, right?), but y'know, i didn't find it! even just one! sigh, i knew batik season had passed, and it's time for line and square pattern --they're everywhere! mostly in oversize shirt design..--, but, please, couldn't I find just one??? I really needed one for my next friday, so i must not wear that peevish white again.
even i started to think that i would get my batik made off. it could better than desperately looked for something not in its era.

however..
i lacked my white's. should buy some asap..if this white era doesn't end asap, i guess, i'll full my cabinet with white. mum's true, i shouldn't crush on white, maybe it's feedback for me, cuz i didn't listen her at time.
can't wait for my uniform. give it to me please!

here i am..coming home now.

Seems my estimation of how busy i am,so i can't blog for long time,is a big no,no. Writing have been an addictive to me,it becomes one of my refresh method from all business,beside shopping,of course,he..
Knowing my cell phone afford my passion for writting,helps me much. I often open my blog from it,and write anything,even just a short note,or something unimportant.
Now,i am sitting on bus which taking me home. It's my first holiday after working whole week,i never feel so grateful of weekend,until now,until i know,how job can make us strongless..ha..
Bus hasn't going. Damn, i hate waiting,esp in messy bus like this. Often, i wondered why there's no good bus from jakarta to sukabumi. Many people come and leave every day,why don't they prepare some vip bus? One day,my uncle--he lives in Jakarta--told me there was vip jakarta - sukabumi bus,with AC (yup,with ac!imagine that!).but its passangers didn't obey the rules.they smoked inside.they made graffiti on seat and window.imagine how they messed up the bus.i didn't understand why it happen.all comfort is given for them,and they wasted it away.
I remember when i went to malaysia for training in university of malaya (edmat,remember?)
I tried many public transportation in kuala lumpur,bus way,sub way,mrt. i couldn't say they work perfectly,but of course --even blind man could see--they worked better than us. No jealousy,only a bit confuse. Indonesia is older than malaysia,according its independence day.i am sure we have good human resources too. We are rich too. You must have heard,in past time,malaysia imported many teachers from us. But,nowadays,they develop better than us in many way.
I do not understand,outta there,people's running away,
And we still crawling like a snails.
Oh,get to go,my bus ready to leave.