November guys! How've you been? Pheeeew, I can't believe 2020 is almost over, it passed like whooshes and left nothing? It's not that everything is bad and gruesome, some things were bearable and passable, but like bare-minimum only? It's like we've only tried to pass and survive our days with nothing intended. Some days were okay, some days were worse than other. There were nights when my eyes kept open and my thoughts wouldn't stop thinking the worse. This year is so hard. Hard, hard and hard. Human knew that they couldn't plan future, but uncertainty still killing us this time. I wish we could do better, but I think survive is maybe our best effort, and do some little things to help each other? Help is required, humanity is tested. Maybe we'll survive this, maybe we won't?
January 21, 2020
Blog ini masih ada ya wow.
- Zafran sudah dapat berkomunikasi dua arah. Walaupun dibandingkan perkembangan teman seusianya yang bisa membentuk kalimat panjang dan lengkap, dia masih belum bisa mengejar, akan tetapi dia sudah bisa menyampaikan kalimat-kalimat pendek, dan merespon pertanyaan.
- Motorik Zafran juga masih tidak sama dengan perkembangan teman-teman seusianya, akan tetapi menurut saya sudah cukup lumayan.
- Terapi Zafran lokasinya cukup jauh dari rumah, dan bulan Juli dia sudah masuk ke SD. Saya berpikir akan cukup melelahkan kalau terapinya dilanjut, apalagi rencananya SD nanti akan saya masukkan ekskul atau les tambahan. Selain itu, jam terapinya membuat Zafran sering pulang duluan dari TK, sehingga sedikit mengganggu aktivitasnya.
January 14, 2018
|To the moon and back 💜💜|
January 01, 2018
As we grew up (or old?), hub and I started to ignore all these New Year brouhaha. This year is no exception. Yes, we ordered some deliveries but only because little one suddenly woke up at 10 pm and wouldn't get to sleep again. Guess he'd like to celebrate New Year after all. Or not. He was freaking out of firework. Not a big fan. He asked to be hugged every time he heard fireworks. So yeah.
2017 was awesome yet tiring for me. For us. We made some big decisions, life-changing ones (for us!). We spent almost half of our savings to renovate our little home. Thank God the result was amazing. But then, we made decision to move from that-said home to another city, simply because we wanted to live together as family, not having long distance one as we'd been living since many years ago.
So yeah, financially we're doomed. Haha. I was having severe homesick, although all this time I was the one who'd been buggering my husband to move out. I missed sleeping in my own bed, cooking in my own kitchen. But reality set in. Now this is our home too. Not perfect with freaking hot weather, but maybe let's try to live with it?
Little things happened too. I'd been learning to drive since last 2016, but in 2017 I started to drive on my own. 2017 marked the beginning of my job as my son's private Uber driver. Hahaha. Now I can proudly say that I've been experiencing some inter-state driving (and one of them, it was only both of us, my son and I, I still think it was some miracle), but I still sucks at parking. Why why why it's so difficult.
I do hope 2018 will be good to us. To everyone. I'll be 30 in 2018! Is it insane? Let's start the anti aging skin care regime then!
September 07, 2017
Awalnya nggak ada rencana kemana-mana. Eh, sempet kepikiran buat ke Semarang.. cuma rasanya waktunya terlalu mepet dan suami nggak bisa extend cuti jadi yasudahlah... nggak usah dipaksain juga. Last minute akhirnya memutuskan buat staycation aja di dalam kota, karena males juga buat kemana-mana. The curse of being parents? No. I think this is the curse of being.... old. Hahaha... Deciding to stay at Hotel Anugerah because it has best coffee shop in town, and its dessert menus, and their pizzas. And it's located near a tasty ice cream joint in town. Dan Hotel Horison full booked karena Presiden Jokowi is in the town dan nginep disitu.
Singkat cerita, menyenangkan sekali sih. Berenang sampai sore, malemnya order in room dining trus masih tambah bungkus dari RM Ibu Bunut yang lokasinya cuma selemparan batu aja (dan yang katanya Jokowi juga makan disitu kemarinnya). Ngemil es krim dua scoop plus toping beng-beng dan FREE popcorn cuma habis 35.000 SAJA. No wonder kemarin ada selebgram (?) jalan-jalan ke Sukabumi dan semacam freaked out betapa murahnya pricelist restoran disini.
Kita bertiga cuma stay satu malam, karena asalnya mau malam mingguan di rumah aja.. eh tahu-tahu suami ngajakin caps ke Bandung. Berdua aja. Hahaha.. udah lama juga sih gak nginep berdua aja. So long, so long. Akhirnya titip Zaf ke neneknya, booking hotel dadakan dan off we go. Dari awal udah wanti-wanti diri sendiri nggak usah ambisius lah target kemana-mana, woles aja.. yang penting bisa jajan thai tea sama d crepes. Bahagia itu kadang emang receh banget deh.
Dan emang gak kemana-mana loh. Cuma mampir ke mall deket hotel aja, karena setelah enam tahun lamanya akhirnya sepatu lari saya jebol juga (I don't get any point in having more than one running shoes so I have no spare) jadi emang niatnya cuma mau ke Planet Sports aja cari sepatu lari. Dan jajan d crepes. Tetep ya. Makan malam kita delivery hokben aja ke hotel. Hahahaha.. We keep repeating we're getting old so we don't sweat the small stuffs, tapi emang dari dulu kalo lagi sama suami emang sukanya yang simple dan pasti-pasti aja sih. Mau hotel atau tempat makan. Kalau nyobain yang baru atau lagi hype enaknya sama temen-temen aja. We also didn't get the point of ngantri panjang dan lama-lama buat nyobain sesuatu yang baru dan lagi trending. We're that old. Haha.
Besoknya walaupun udah kenyang banget makan breakfast buffet di hotel, tapi sumpah kepo banget makan Cuanki Serayu padahal masih jam 11 siang. Tapi ternyata best timing sih pas sampai lokasi belum begitu ramai. Pas tengah-tengah kita makan baru deh orang berdatangan dan parkir udah mulai habis aja. Enak sih... tapi yaudahlah sebatas tahu aja, kalau sampai desek-desekan balik kesini sih nggak mau juga.
That's it. Now I am craving more holidays and breakfast buffets. Yeah right.. betapa sulitnya menurunkan dua kilo pasca Lebaran Idul Fitri dan hanya butuh long weekend tiga hari buat menaikkannya lagi. Lyfe.
September 05, 2017
August 23, 2017
August 20, 2017
I. CAN'T. SLEEP.
TOO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED. I think I've been overstimulated. Oh, and coffee. Is a bitch. Not really, it was pretty good but now I am still awake.
God. How reality sucks. I mean, there are many things I should be grateful for. Healthy life. Healthy family. Good food. Premiere of The Defenders. But when you become adult, practically everything sucks, doesn't it? Or am I becoming a cynic?
I must be rambling. Tommorow, or next month when I read this post, I am going to decide if I have to delete it because it is so embarassing. I never delete a post. EVER. Oh. That was one time I post something about a life of a friend. Didn't mention her name but still she objected it, so I removed it to draft. Still haven't deleted it, I think, I'll consider to repost it sometimes. I guess it'll be fine since she never read my blog again. I think.
So, I have to wake up at 5. Now 2.45. Sucks. I planned to go running in the morning but I have no idea whether I'll be able to. One day when my son gets older and he reads my blog, will he think that I was an incompetent mom? Struggling to get a sleep while he needs to be fed in the morning?
I have to put my phone away. Yeees, I've done it before. So many times. But still can't sleep. Let's do it again. One more time.