July 13, 2010

Night Intense

Suddenly i feel strong power encouraging me to write this night. Honestly, I have no idea what to write, and I am too busy to prepare for exam tomorrow, but the power has been so intense lately, so I give up, and start writing.

I miss Yogya. When did last time I visit there? A year ago? Two years ago? Yogyakarta will always be my favorite holiday spot. I always feel kind of eternal tranquility just with entering the town. Even when I was just sitting and enjoyed windy weather, I could smell nice and exotic-scented around me. Yogya's surroundings is calming me. Never too old. Never too crowd. Never be bored.

Mom, I miss you like crazy. My perfect fan, best friend, half of my life. Life's getting hard, mom. On and on. Being far with you is always be hardest part in my life. I always miss the time when I can lean on your shoulder, hug you, kiss you. How I miss your talkative talks, your strong thoughts. It's me mom, trying to make you proud. Always. I know, I'll never could stand up for these whole time if you weren't there for me. But, there you are. Happy and sad. Far or near. I love you, I love you, I love you, Mom. Let's fighting together, Mom.

Grandma, yesterday I was dreaming of you. It's been long time since you visited me in my last dream. How are you, Grandma? Are you happy with timeless life? Does He keep you well? I believe He does, for a sweet and nice grandma like you were. Sometimes I was remembering time we had spent together. They were beautiful, weren't they? But, sometimes I regret because you can't see me growing up. That's what you always want to do right? See your grandchildren growing up, graduating, married, and starting new life. I really, really, really hope you are able to see me passing those phases. I really wish you could see me on my wedding days. Taking care of my pregnancy. Accompanying me on my delivery date. You were so good on those things, even better than mom. :) How could I do it without you? But I believe you are happy now Grandma. See you later, I love you so much, so deep.
 

6 comments:

  1. semangat kawan,,kamu pasti bisa..
    jaga ibadah,do'a,usaha..
    Inysa Allah, Allah pasti menolong kita...
    ^_^v

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  2. Yup! tetep semangat ya! and do the best for this life.I know you're a big girl.

    Ehmm....Jogja is the most place I want to visit to. Hopefully I can go there this year.

    Have a nice day!

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  3. hi yulia..
    saya jg blm dpt kabar dr mypulau..
    km gmn ?

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  4. pagi-pagi baca blognya dela yang udah sekian lama nggak mampir dan ngikutin perkembangan per-blogan *ahbetapakupernyaakuakhirakhirini.
    Dan jadi keinget jogja yang memang bener.... it always be the greatfull place to live I think. Dan jadi kangen sama ibu...

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  5. How are u doin Della?
    I miss yogya tooo :)

    #sending a prayer for ur grandma

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