Ya Allah, it's getting harder and harder every time. I thought we will get used to it, but until now we'll feel unbearable sick feeling every Monday morning, know that we're not gonna see each other for next 120 hours. The good thing that we know we love each other very much, because if we don't, we won't feel this way. I know that we, that I, have already made my choice, but after days, I start to doubt whether it's right one or not, whether I should change it before it's too late. Of course I am scared, it will be big change in my life, and I don't have any idea what it's gonna bring me. Need some moments to think about it and I got a year actually for this, but sometimes I feel I can't bear it any longer.