wish,wish,wish,wish,wish,wish,wish,only wish!

wish list. . .

1. Pillars of The Earth, kalo bisa sekalian World Without End-nya Ken Follet.

2. Perfect glowing high heels.

3. Eclipse

4. Breaking Dawn (dua-duanya dari Stephenie Meyer)

5. Envelope bags-nya Utopia (can anyone help me, helluuuuuw??)

He, I lie. . .

Nope, I just want everything's alright, meet the end at the perfect time and perfect place. . .

I just want my mum, being here, and always supporting my condition. .

But. really I won't refuse if one will give me those five thing,huhuhu. .

Huff. . .

once again, I was beaten down with my emotion, supposed it shouldn't happened, but it did!

Being mad with everyone, crying myself, every fool things that I supposed to refuse. .

I'm 20 now, but I haven't felt any change in me. .





I just don't get it. .

I'm so confuse. .

k!cK @Ndy

Kick Andy yang baru fresh bgt!!!

Cepet dateng ke websitenya ya. . .

www.kickandy.com

boleh ga kalo ga pake judul?

Feels like pic above. .

See outside through out my window. .

Look at everything and realize they're so messy!!!!

Uhh. . .

mau daftar sidang aja susah bgt!!

banyak bgt persyaratannya, , ,

pusing!!

padahal wish aku cuma pingin sidang bulan ini. . .

biar mam and pap ga kuatir lagi. . .

biar Aldo, adekku ga cerewet lagi nanyain kapan selese. . .

biar bisa datengin Wulan, my BFF kesini. . . .

biar nenek sama aki tenang disana. . .

biar andesit ga pusing lagi dengerin keluhanku soal TA (ntar jadinya ngeluh soal nyari kerja ya huun,hehe, , , )

biar ga diledekin dan diremehin sama setiap orang yang nge-underestimate TA gw dan teguh, ,

biar bisa pake blazer Valino Donna. . . .


pingin sidaaang bulan ini,huuks!

"tahun ke 15"

It's been 15 years since we meet each other. . .

Hard to explain how I felt that day. .
I saw a little girl beside her mom, come toward us (me and my mom). .
it was my first day in elementary school. .

I was excited, because I would go to my first school.
Real school, not like my kindergarten, which always consists of play and sing,

I planned to be an "it" girl in my first school, so I remembered that I have a bad feeling, when her mother told me, "Dela sekolah dimana? Wulan di Cisuda I lho.."

I felt that girl would stole some attention from me, because she was also five, like me, younger than every kids usually..

But, time has passed by. .
Now, I feel I can't survive without her!!

I think the only reason is our indifference. .
I feel that I am her. .
and I'm sure that she'll think the same. .

we need no call, no e-mail, no message, but we've known each other. .
we have something more than that, something that I can't explain. . .

Our friendship is connecting our heart,
I hope we'll be best friend together. .



PS. Lan, Happy 15th Anniversary . . . .
I'm so proud to have you!!!
Miss you much!!!

pray, hope, and love of the day..

WAW....

WAW!!!!

Can't imagine the "day" is finally coming. . . .
20's comiiiiiiiiiiing!!

huf, never feels so mature before, feels so old, hehe..
Being adult never be an enjoyful experience for me, but whatever, I'll face this day with smile..

After facing so much love from my family, and friends, of course I won't surrender for this age..
I'll struggle with all my power and passion, show in front of the world, that I can be as good as they want!!!

So give me a pray..

2 days later..

Hahahaha..

2 days later is a first 20's of my life.. (of course, coz people can't through it for the second chance)
it's just so unbelieveable..

remember all the past, felt so blue when I got mature,

and know I still feel the same..

Love, hate, like, dislike, enjoy or no, that's impossible if I don't take a part of this..

Birthday is a process..which can make us become better than before,
realize that we have more responsibility more than we ever think about,
and know that life is not only revolute around us..

we can't refuse..

huff,
2 days later, what'll coming??
Frightened, but I must do it!!!

pernakah dalam hidup kamu merasa...

Kadang sedikit menyakitkan kalo ada orang lain yang lebih hebat dari kita...

Bukannya mengingkari kenyataan bahwa setiap manusia pasti memiliki kelebihan dan kekurangan, tapi pernah ga.. sekali aja dalam hidup kamu, ada seseorang yang deket dengan kamu, entah itu orang tua, sahabat, kakak, adik, temen kerja kelompok, karyawan sekantor, temen berorganisasi, atau siapapun, yang benar - benar hebat sehingga kita merasa tertenggelamkan..

Contoh..
Kakakmu, terus2an dapat peringkat satu di setiap semester sekolahnya, sehingga usahamu untuk masuk 10 besar dan berhasil terabaikan oleh ayah dan ibu..
Atau, karena ibumu seorang penyanyi terkenal, maka profesimu sebagai penyanyi dibilang hanya numpang nama orang tua..

Atau..
saking pintarnya temanmu dalam satu kelompok tugas sekolah, kamu dibilang hanya memanfaatkan dia, sedangkan kamu sudah merasa melakukan yang terbaik..

I do..
I feel it..

My fault, I know,, I should never think about it..
I've tried, even it's failed, but I should know that I've tried..

I should confidying myself, not to break it all,
I shouldn't feel so useless, feel unimportant..

It's hard..
but I should do it..
Crying myself doesn't make any support of all I've done for so long..

I feel failed..

Are there any way to fix it all??

I don't know..but I've tried..
and I'll always try..

T..W..I..L..I..G..H..T

gw ga percaya..

ada yang berhasil ngegeser kedudukan Harry Potter sebagai seri fantasi nomer satu di hati gw..

it's TWILIGHT..
first, gw lagi ngunjungin site-nya Sitta Karina (one of my most fav author) and I saw her "pick up of the month"..
It was TWILIGHT, by Stephenie Meyer..
honestly, I'd never been heard that name before, but Sitta gave review which could make other people wanted to know..
So did me..

Jadi..gw pergi ke toko buku, whether I had no idea about this book..
When I started to read it.. I was amazed..
WOW! yup, only "WOW" world could imagine what I felt..

Unique theme (vampire, I bet you wanna think, it's a kinda boring vampire, but I swear, it don't!!!!), great imagination (werewolf, oh yes, there's werewolves in the sequel..wait, have I told you twilight is series???), beautiful romance ( Bet you won't find it in Harry Potter...uhm, ok..maybe a little), lot of love, adventure, and puzzle..

Finally, Edward Cullen will make you unsleepable before you keep the book done.. (especially, for the girls, WATCH OUT!!!)