October 12, 2009

I've been trying for a while, starting my paused writing life again, but dammit, i really have no idea what to write.
so i dare myself, write again, write anything, any other things which swings in my mind, i don't care whether i blurb with no purpose, or just make bad idea in writing, or some trash that i shouldn't put here.
i wanna write so bad.
so bad til it feels like explosion in my heart.


as i told you before, i have a new life.
it seems like you open a door without any knowledge what inside.
scared, nervous, excited, lonely.
yes, once again, i feel so lonely with this crowd around.
i hate adapting.
like i try to waste all relationships before, and getting to know new people.
getting to build my new "family".


sometimes, i don't even know which one is friend or enemy.
people act nice, they can stab your back.

once again in life, i feel so empty.
i don't know where i going through.

1 comment:

  1. analogi yg bagus, seperti mambuka pintu dan masuk ke ruangan, ruangan yg gelap. Yang bahkan kmu sendiri tidak tidak tahu apa yg ada di dalamnya, neng.
    Untuk bisa memasuki rungan gelap itu tentunya butuh cahaya. Cahayanya berupa keberanian. Yaps, keberanian untuk membuka pintu, masuk ke ruangan, dan bahkan mengeksplor seluruh isi ruangannya.
    Keberanian yang dimaksud tentunya bukan kebranian yg asal berani alias nekat, tetapi juga penuh semangat, dan ajang untuk pembuktian.