Pursuit of Happiness

Inspired by this and this, well, I try to make few simple things that could make me happy. Life crowds make us forgot that sometimes little things could make us smile and happy.  So, for me I am happy today because of.....

1. Tried to listening some new musics, given by a friend and found them interesting. Although never hear most of them for all of my life. :D
2. Having a clear and fast internet connection at office.
3. Receiving a beautiful wedding invitation from a friend. I can't believe he sends me one, seeing in fact we're not that close. :)

4. My pre-wedding photographer posted some behind the scenes from our session last Saturday. Happy to see them. :)
5. Laughing out loud of some unimportant conversation that I can't even remember what, with my office mates.
6. Light rain at the morning. Make today's beginning is so different.

So, when you are gloomy and having a bad day, remember what's you've been through and try to find little happiness among them. Have a nice day!

Moving On

I wanted to write so bad, but it was so bad even I hesitated to call it a writing. It was more than a rambling.
I dunno how many times people had left me in my life. People come, people leave. I even don't dare to say that true love does exist. Bad experience, I guess. So when someone come next to me, and I feel comfortable with them, I feel frightened too. What if they go away? What if they stop loving me?
Yesterday, I read a book, written by Raditya Dika, a writer from Indonesia, titled "Manusia Setengah Salmon". It told me a lot about moving on. That people have to move along their life. Kids grow up into teenagers, teenagers become mature, old, and die. We love someone, and move, and love again, and move again. We can't say exactly where we have to stop, because we don't know. We only feel that maybe it's the right time to move.
So, when someone stop loving you, when someone leave you, maybe it's time for them to move on. Whether you're ready or not, you've given chance to love them, and by the time they go, you can only make sure that you have gotten out the best from you. You can try to stop them, you can try to deny it, but the best thing you can do is keep moving on.
So, being left and disappointed is another life experience, huh? Chin up and smile. There are always good things waiting for you in new place.

Maroon, Gold, Green, and Baby Pink

A friend was throwing her wedding party on previous Sunday. Decide to go there, although it's quite far from my town, in order to meet her and my other friends. We befriended because we were on same batch when we had our training at our office.
I can't tell you a lot, let the pictures speak. Though I'd like to say that she is so beautiful, I couldn't even recognize her at first. So, pictures!!!

Had no idea what's in our mind when we decided to make similar gown to be wore to Arundina's wedding. It's kinda cute, tough, so we don't regret it. And the gift, is from our batch, we both only coordinated it.

First comes! It was sooo nice to see them all, it's been a long time since we met.

The bride and groom! They are gorgeous, aren't they??

After the couple entered the aisle, it's time to mingle and EAT!!

It's us, ladies! :)

Full team!

We had been called to the aisle to take pictures with the bride and groom. The most awaited moment! :p

Cool pose. I just realized that in second picture, the bride was having fun facial expression. Sorry, you're still the prettiest woman there, dear!

Ooooh, attitude please, guys!

Satisfied with delicious dish and few captures, we still spent more time to take pictures at the outside. Geez.

They prepared the background sheet, but when we arrived, the photographer hadn't came yet. So, we took initiative, and took pictures by ourselves. :)

The Ugly Truth.
Actually I came with my boyfriend. It's just... a friend came and brought her D-SLR cam, and because this was kinda our reunion moment, my boyfriend offered himself to be an impromptu photographer, confidently, because actually he has less skill about it. But I was impressed with his sacrifice, he went there and there taking pictures, such as hired one, and ended with less being captured. But, Eno, such as good friend, took some pictures of us, and believe it or not, they are only pictures of him for all day long.

My Man!! :D

Happy Wedding, Dela Arundina! Have a good life ahead! :-*

Going with Rambling

Feel a little bit numb lately. I walked a day without knowing what I've been passing, it's like gazing through abstract exhibition, you've finished it but have no idea what you seeing.

I was sitting, hours by hours, trying to finish some unfinished business. And the worst of that is I keep forgetting what to do, my brain is rebelling, folders  of mind keep disordered.

I've been through worst. Been through worse moments than today. Should remember how to gain some strengths, some confidence, and I am not big fan of self motivation book. Screw them to tell us how to live. I do think everyone have different life, customized one, so none could generalize your life. I believe it's okay to complain sometimes. It's not like none has ever complained about their life, or job, or lovers. Complaints reminds us how lucky we are, to feel, to have own opinion, to be free to say something.

So, I am gonna hang on as long as I can. Moreover, I read somewhere, only the dead who have no problem. Really? I am one of people who believe life after death, theory which says that we are responsible of what we are doing now, assessed by good and bad things we have done. So, the dead sure still have some businesses down there, right?

I've rambled much. It is the result when you need a distraction from your super busy meaningless life. Some of them dancing, some of them singing, some of them reading. I am writing. And rambling.

Keep trying to make your life count. Do tell me how you cope when you think that your life feels so bored lately.

Crafty Missy Etsy

Inspired by a friend of mine, I got a new hobby now! Etsy! I can't believe how I've been missing Etsy for this time. I've known it for long time,but I am not interested in that, until... yesterday. A friend of mine made some purchases, and I started to browse through their collection, and they are all fabulous.
Still have no intention to buy something, but looking so many cute things make me happy! So, these are some things that I've been favoring.

Bird Nest Ring Bearer

Handmade Rustic Journal

Antique Victorian Gold Emerald Cut Pink Tourmaline Ring

Harry Potter Golden Snitch Watch Necklace

Blue Vintage Clutch. I want this one!!!

Silk Clutch in Ivory

Kitchen Art Italian Pizza Chef

All pictures taken from Etsy.com

Ah, beautiful stuff can make us happy, can't them? Etsy makes me happy! Happy Friday, everyone!

Better than Bloodline

One thing I've learned about friendship for these years, that there are really many various friendship. You can't force what friendship you're into, instead letting it flow and be what it be.
Friendship could be suck and annoying, even involves some backstabbing. Whether some of you wonder, "how could it called friendship", but I assure you some think that it's really worth it. I have many experience of this kinda friendship, I even confuse myself why even I try to maintain this relationship while I know sometimes (s)he could speak behind me, or do an inconvenient act who disturbs me. The thing is maybe I am weighing thing. Maybe I am trying to judge whether they are still worth-friend called.
And, look Serena and Blair? Patrick and Spongebob? Even the bestest friend have their own quarrel. But, somehow they manage their personal issues, and turn it into something precious that they know they have to protect it until the end. No matter how hard it is to make up after big fighting, they surely did it, and come back into the dynamic duo.
You'll find your way to recognize what's good and bad from your friends. Don't give to keep trying and valuing your friendship. :) :)

The Old Lady

Yesterday was National Blogger Day, and yes. No posting at all. Not here, or here, or here. I guess I am the one who put writing as hobby, so I do it when I have time,and yesterday wasn't really good time (and also the day before, and the day before, and the.. oh, cut the crap)

But, here I am, start to writing, as something was bugging me this morning. I was starting this day by thinking about my late grandma. It's been three years since she passed away, and I should admit that her leaving which inspired me a lot to start this blog. That I want to legate something to my ancestries one day. The same reason why I haven't thrown away my old diaries, keep every pieces of old paper that I used to be drawn in high school, just because someday my great granddaughter will read it and laugh at me. Sounds to poetic? Maybe I read romance a lot, but I really want to do it.

So, back with grandma. Since I was baby, she (and grandpa) took care of me because my mom was full time working mother, and my dad worked out of town. Yes, I had a nanny then, but mostly they nurtured me by themselves. Grandma always said that I was grandpa's favorite grandchild, in the other hand she treated all of her grandchildren equally, and had no favorite (well, to be exact I had no idea, but she never showed it that way). Grandpa was my favorite too, but he had been sick since I was so young, and passed away when I was on eight grade, so I didn't remember him much.

Grandma is a graceful woman. She was beautiful and elegant. She was the one who taught me all the beauty tips. Don't forget to use body lotion. Apply balm on your lip. Use aloe vera in you hair. She is the opposite of my mom (grandma said to me once that mom is like grandpa a lot), while my mom is an ignorant, tomboy woman. No, I am not saying I don't love her, they both have their own character, and to be honest, I think I am more like my mother than my grandma. Bloodline, can't resist it, I guess.

With all the mess of my wedding arrangement, I perforce remember her. If she was still here, she will be the one who organize everything. She will take care everything, and maybe, maybe she won't let my mother and I interfere her. She, maybe, will annoy me with her choices, force me to agree in everything she plan, belittle my mother's opinion, and take everything under her control. But, I, in other case, is pretty sure that my mother and I will love it! We (mom and I) are the lazy one, we love handing every vocations to the third party. We don't wanna bother detailed things, and you know, it will be perfect if grandma could be here. After all, she did had a good taste, and I can use her against my mom. Ha!

Too bad, she couldn't. I remember when I was a kid, in our random conversation, I often told her that she should be with me when I graduate from college. Be there when I am jobless, and cheer when I finally get my first job. Go out and have dinner together from my first salary. Meet my fiancee, and assess him as if he is good enough for me. She had to make sure that I'll be perfect in my wedding day. She had to hold my hand when I deliver my first baby. My second baby. And the third baby. She should teach me how to change a diaper, take my child to feel the morning sun, and I even remember told her that she should make peace with mom for my children sake, and take care of them together.

I am sorry the she couldn't make it. She passed away three months before my graduation day. It was painful day, I was four hundreds and sixty three kilometers away and I had no idea what to do then. My dad notified me at 11 pm, and he said that I don't have to go home, because it will be no use. The next day bus is at 6 pm, and at the time they will have already buried her.

She didn't look sick. She looked old, of course, but for me, she was as healthy as teen. No one ever guessed, and everyone seemed surprised. My mother said, grandma was admitted to hospital a day before it because of asphyxiation, but doctor told them nothing serious. Doctor suggested one night stay to monitor her condition, and my mom agreed. Nothing happened that night, mom said grandma slept well, she could eat well, and didn't complain at all. At the morning, grandma asked mom to escort her to bathroom, and mom left her for about two minutes to take something and when she came back, grandma already passed away. I can't imagine how shocked my mom was, we even couldn't talk about that day after that. I forgot how many months had passed, when we were finally able to open up ourselves, and talked about that day.

So, I said to mom this morning, "If grandma was still here and assist us on this (my wedding preparation), I guarantee we'll have a lot of fights". Mom didn't answer,but I know she miss her too. We all do.

For my beloved grandmother, one of greatest person I've ever known. I am so blessed to know you, hope you rest in peace there.
Love, Dela

Foot Protection and Fashion

Every woman must have their heroine. Me, myself, love shoes very much. While it's so common, but I always reconsider my will to purchase some clothes or bag, and go buying a new shoes. Maybe it started from my limited allowance since high school, and then I talked to myself that someday I'll put aside a bit of my salary for having new shoes (and books, but we aren't discussing it now) every month.
Now, I am a working girl (or woman? It's so hard to decide whether I've already became a woman or not), I find some freedom of shopping. It's kinda out of limit sometimes, looking at many pretty, chic shoes around, I often unable to handle myself, and it usually ends by me, examining my saving balance devastatingly. But, with many local products and affordable products around, I am able to draw a sigh of relief. At least with Wondershoe, I am able to purchase two pairs of flat without feeling guilty. UP provide high class design and fabrics, with affordable price. Too bad,they often run out of materials, so some of their designs are discontinued. Payless Shoesources is a new girl in town. I don't know where this shop comes from (too lazy to google, sorry, you do it for me! :) ), but it supplies many good brands with various designs, and AFFORDABLE price. Again. Well, for middle class society like me, price is always been a priority for shopping consideration. :)

But, for shoes, comfort is always be a number one. For some people, having blister is a bless, but for me it's a big no. So, choose your shoes wisely, and happy shopping! Have a good Friday. :)